The Eclipse

Facing Shadows

This Saturday, August 16th, 2008 there will be a partial lunar eclipse.  Those folks living in Africa, Europe, parts of Australia and South America will be able to view the variance of light and form.

No light and therefore, no shadows.

Always at my side
My other self- always nearby

I don’t know about you, but sometimes I get weary of seeing my shadow and maybe the shadows of those I love.  I am all for being the best I can be yada yada yada.  But honestly, my shadows, my darker side – the behaviors and secret intentions I try to hide can be disturbing and sometimes ugly.

I know, I know.  The Zen way would embrace the shadow and recognize the unity of all things.
And, I should do that. 

But sometimes, I prefer an eclipse. 

I love the light.  Although I look a lot older when I see myself in full daylight,
(did someone say WRINKLES!), I like the warm and enchanted feeling I get from light rays, both solar and lunar.  Yet hidden within the bright dance of atoms, there is the haunting shadow that lurks behind, waiting to appear at the most unsuspecting moment.

Have you been surprised or even scared by the shadows of those you love the most?

If it’s not my darker mishaps I have to deal with, it seems to be those ugly monsters slinking behind those I adore that cast a spell on my senses and send me reeling.

When I don’t know what to do, and my silence has been muddled in a gong show from my ego, I know where to go.  I go to my GOLDEN Zen: Ginger.

She reminds me that light shines from within and happiness is a fleeting plaything.   She can be content in any situation and offers little resistance to what she dislikes.   Instead, she changes focus.

She rests much more than I and makes no apology for being quiet.  She forgives me before I ask. Her love knows no resentment and welcomes even my dismal displays.

Sometimes self-forgiveness and forgiveness of others is just an acceptance of shadows.  Part of being in the light is our agreement to live in unison with what is hidden.

…Making friends with ‘ID,” as Freud would say.

But for this weekend, Saturday night (early Sunday am), I am going to relish in the dark and enjoy the lack of expectation I experience when I can’t see my way and everything is a surprise.

In the Grace of the Moment,

PS I am so grateful to the artists who help me say what I try so hard to say with words.  Special thanks to: I. Anton who has an amazing display of photos at Flickr:  and to Daniel Piulet for the use of his enormous gaze into the sky and moon.  You can find his display of photos at


14 Comments Add yours

  1. Robin says:

    You have written beautifully about acceptance, Harmony! I hope you and Ginger enjoy your surprises this weekend.

  2. surjit says:

    Harmony, I fully believe and agree with your insights:
    ‘.. The Zen way would embrace the shadow and recognize the unity of all things…’
    You are a well read and experienced person.I am learnig a lot from your wisdom.
    God bless.

  3. Davina says:

    Hi Harmony. When you write, I listen.

    Through studying Life Coaching I have experienced (I’d always read about this), that there is growth in the shadows. A Life Coach will hold you down there and keep you there. Yes, really!

    Take a look around sometime when you’re “down there”. You might be surprised at the insights you receive. Heck, some fruits ripen best in the dark. I’ve noticed that when I stop resisting or fearing those shadows they get thinner and the light eventually shines through.

  4. Harmony says:

    *Robin- acceptance has taught me to live a much more peaceful life. Isn’t there a saying – “If you can’t beat ’em baby, join ’em!” 🙂

    *Surjit- Living our life in our understanding is sometimes like swimming the breaststroke in a metal armor – possible but with challenge indeed. 🙂

    *Davina- You are so right. My shadow or dark side is often where I really get to change. Yay. Sometimes though, change is tiring. And looking at the shadows of others – well they always look a lot more like monsters than I do. 🙂

    Thanks to all who share your rich insights. Namaste’

  5. mergingpoint says:

    It is again the division in seeing things that had caused the imbalance, call it good or bad, light or dark. Thanks to all the contributors, known and unknown. Indeed, it is because of knowing the division, one gets the awareness to see them as they are and also beyond.
    always loved to watch the shadow along with the form..a great feel!! watch it in movement too, be total .

  6. Hi Harmony,
    Personally I like shadows, they let me know that I am not walking alone, which is very illuminating. 😀

  7. goldenzen says:

    Mergingpoint: You are so right! Total acceptance of the whole is crucial- but if the shadows hurt, it may take time.

    Alexys: You have a great viewpoint. I will remind my shadows, and those of my loved ones, how lovely it is to see them again. 🙂

  8. Hi harmony,

    It’s good to see you writing again. I love how you describe Ginger as your Golden Zen. Animals are that way, aren’t they. So forgiving, loving and accepting. In their eyes we can do no wrong. A pat on the head, a stroke of their fur, and they’ll follow us anywhere. Ah… unconditional love.

  9. I love to look up at the moon. What is it about the moon that is so mesmerizing? Even when it is eclipsed and we can’t see it at all, it still captivates me. This is an enchanting post 😉

  10. tobeme says:

    Great thoughts! There is much too be found in the shadows. Thanks for sharing your shadows.

  11. “sometimes I prefer an eclipse”

    Love that.

    I heard a great idea for a tee shirt earlier this week:

    Come over to the Dark side, we have cookies!

    (It was in a comment thread on the Art of Nonconformity)

    An occasional eclipse? Sounds good to me. Time out for everyone. Namaste. 🙂

  12. Simon says:

    Whoops! Missed it… Or did I? I seemed to be finding plenty of shadows in myself yesterday: dark, painful things welling up out of deep inside me. But today those shadows are gone. Perhaps it was the eclipse that whisked them away…

  13. Ellen Wilson says:

    Well, Zen is all about accepting all the crap. And if we are to be whole we have to recognize the stinkiness. Or else it’s stinky Zen!

    I have been trying to figure out the shadow for a very long time. It seems it eclipses all of us. I guess there is no way to go about it except to recognize it’s there. I could go on and on but I will stop.

    What I like about animals is that they really don’t care about any of that. They cut it all down to its essence. Give me food and I will love you. In some ways we aren’t so different. Except our food is a little different. Okay, I will stop! E

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